"With every passing of the needle the pain of loss bit and began to ease." *
The green tiles quilt was finished on January 1, but only now do I feel ready to write about it.
Way back in June when we lost our little one, it occurred to me to make a quilt. At the time a friend said, "But that will take you ages." And this was the whole point. I wanted to have something to labour over and I didn't mind if it took until the baby's expected due date.
As it turned out it took longer than that but I think it needed to. At times I would find myself rushing and would need to gently remind myself that it was not a race. I trusted then that I would know when it was time for the final stitch.
And I did.
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In making this quilt I have so many people to thank. Firstly, Kate who I emailed for advice on where to start. She in turn put me on to the Fresh Modern Quilt group where I was inspired by a beautiful quilt by Rita, whom I had yet to find in the blogosphere. When I emailed Rita to ask her permission to use her quilt as inspiration she not only gave me her blessing, she sent me a beautiful package of fabrics, some of which were actually used in the quilt.
I also want to thank Kathy from Material Obsession. Poor Kathy got me at my rawest at the quilt show last June just days after the miscarriage. But she made me laugh and sent me on my way with her book and the offer of help if ever I needed it. I did and she was there as promised. It was also Kathy's suggestion that I hand quilt. I think she knew before I did that I needed to s-l-o-w down!
And for all the amazing, warm, beautiful, kind, awesome-ness that came in the form of comments and emails and cards and packages from YOU! People I had never 'met' in person but who comforted and inspired me more than I can ever express. Thank you, thank you, a million times thank you!
*(Alden, 2003 as quoted in Grief Unseen: Healing Pregnancy Loss Through the Arts by Laura Seftel)